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Life On The Leading Edge Of Everything…

…and the ever-expanding map of my life!

Playing bigger and better than ever before from a broader perspective on all of it…so far…

Part 1 of many… (’cause I have no idea where this’ll go from here?)

Live your life in such a way
that when your feet hit the floor in the morning,
Satan shudders and says,
“Oh shit….she’s awake!!!”

~ Originator Unknown at this point…let me know if you do!

Here I Am! T. Master Manifestress and I Am fabulous!! Thanks for askin’!

I have been very “covert” in my operations the past year and a half or so and many of my dear and wonderful online and distance friends are asking for and about me these past days! This writing will serve as both a catch-up and ice-breaker, ’cause the magical and beautiful stories are piling up here and I can’t tell them without context!

I won’t promise brevity in this one…and perhaps just maybe you’ll find a wee bit ‘o’ your own clarity in my ramblings…? Grab a chocolate martini and some popcorn and read on if you dare…

I set some new and definite intentions for the re-creation of my world almost 2 years ago that set in motion a whole new dynamic to, and perspective on, life as I thought I knew it…again!

As I continually get better at ignoring the desires others have for me and surrender my Self to my own heart’s desires, I am amazed at how easily life flows, with very little resistance – for both them and me. It means listening to the inside instead of the outside and giving it ALL up to the Universe to sort things out for me and line up what It/I knows is perfect for Me!

In valuable hindsight, I could NEVER have possibly dreamt up what was in escrow waiting for Me! I am continually reminded of Einstein’s famous quote,

“We cannot solve our problems with the same thinking we used when we created them.”

Problems…what problems?? Getting the meaning of Einstein’s quote means getting the meaning of what it is to “have faith” and let go of what I think should Be or even what I think is “right” or “wrong”. And, I have heard that the best way to give God a good belly laugh is to share your earthly plans with him…

It’s been almost a year since I wrote to my online subscribers and my blog has been contributed to by extreme inspirational moments only. It seems that in trying to find balance between my online and off line worlds, I have swung too far in the direction I wanted more of…”how we do anything is how we do everything.”

That’s the thing about extreme focus…I often go way past my mark in the busy action of trying to hit it!! Since realizing the scale had tipped too far in the “other” direction I have had the strong desire to sequester myself to a space where I can finally tell my amazing and (hopefully) inspiring stories back here on the web, my home and world away from “the world”.

I am tucked into Mom & Dad’s house while they’re off to play at the cottage for a month! I’ll join the family in a few days, and for now I’m keeping the gardens watered and her small herd of rodents and flock of birds fed!

It has been just over 3 and ½ years since I left my corporate employer, and 13 years as a developing Entrepreneur. As I travel back along my life’s timeline from my now broader perspective, I can clearly see why it sometimes felt like something big was coming – it always did!!

Hind-sight is not only 20/20 in its clarity; it also uses very wide, broad spectrum lenses with which to observe the fact that everything along my journey so far – the good, the bad and the ugly – was in fact always ALL good.

I have accomplished far more personal development and abundance in my 3 years of “entrepreneurial freedom” than I did in 24 years of employment, not to belittle or say that my 24 year journey was not beneficial or insignificant, it appears though, that the momentum has picked up since freeing up my time and focus, and I’m enjoying the faster ride on the expansive edge of all of my experiences!

From my broader perspective, like gazing upon a big map of my life, I can see how far I’ve come, the obstacles I overcame and avoided, and the golden nuggets of wisdom I gained for having faith while mucking around down in it! I now see how everything I did and decided – good or bad – had a place in all of it.

And, just like any other map, it has an edge! I do not know what is beyond the edge of my map! And, I am learning not to worry about that! What I can see from here is good enough to give me the faith to go back into the action of my life, to muck about and splash around some more…it’s ALL good!! And in looking back, knowing I can project all the good stuff forward, I get that flutter in my tummy about the excitement to come and a Universal “wink, wink, nod, nod” that I ain’t seen nuthin’ yet!!

Today, I am living my dreams and recognizing them as MY dreams.

They don’t look quite as I had pictured them so many years ago, and the “feeling place” I enjoy from living them IS the dream!! When life feels SO good you can hardly stand to let it all in, and sometimes your eyes leak, you’re getting the hang of living life in your truth and in your purpose!! It’s a complete rush!!

I have become accustomed to “surrendering to the absurd” and have found out that the funniest, wackiest and most sublime stuff can happen if you just go with it! “The Absurd” is the stuff of the leading edge and I have had the most fun, the greatest results and served the greatest good putting myself out there to ride it! It is the place where I have to truly “let go of the oars” and let the current carry me! (A beautiful metaphor by one of my favorite teachers – Abraham-Hicks.)

In observing the patterns of my Being I clearly see I am here Now to Be on the leading edge of whatever is happening that is “big”. I have once again landed on that wave front of revolution and monumental change! I am comfortable there and thrive on the excitement of the unknowns!! I also know I’ll get what I expect and MY vision for what’s coming is absolutely thrilling!

So back to October of 2006, I sat at my desk asking some different questions of myself and the Universe in general. In a catalystic move, I had just sold up 2400 square feet of house and 20 years of home ownership stuff after realizing all that space and 8 major appliances were perhaps a bit excessive for my personal needs. I had left the corporate life behind 2 years past and realized I was still maintaining the thinking, and consequently the stuff that always went with it. “It” was no longer serving Me and mine.

I tucked myself into an apartment with some dear friends temporarily, to figure out where I wanted to dig in again, I wasn’t getting that it would be in my home town necessarily, and without crystal clarity, the temporary arrangement felt “right”.

One of the first and best things I did coming out of corporate employment was to make a decision about my own development and educational growth. It is what I call one of my “catalystic” decisions. It changed the course of my life as I knew it. I sold up my corporate shares and invested them into T. Harv Eker’s Peak Potentials program. It seemed a fitting and respectful use of the funds and in looking back it was a metaphorical “hand-off”. My employer had taken very good care of me and my learning. I felt I was appreciating a gift, and I wanted the whole enchilada Baby!!

The “Big Yes” called to me persistently from deep within and I listened! Funny thing about listening for the answers from within; when I make the “right decision” for me, there’s always a space of quite and assured peace, a true sense of security in the world and there’s always a distinct “lack” of confusion or need to justify the decision, it’s a smooth movement forward with whatever transpires.

Following my dreams is a continual journey of listening and responding with purpose and faith – and a lot of ignoring how others expect me to respond. The latter has been the harder part of the journey – that’s the “letting go” part, the place where the biggest lessons tend to present.

When the “self-serving decision” is made though, something moves in the Ether and all forms of support start lining up to manifest, and as self-serving as the decision appears to be on the outside, it is usually one that serves ALL!

I knew that growing my Self first would take care of everything else I could think of that was important to me, and I had already been listening to and learning from T. Harv for some time – on tapes. I had already witnessed the difference his teaching made to my net worth and confidence and realized I wanted to see him live and continue working with him. Looking back, I now know why this work called so strongly to me, in fact it put itself conveniently in front of me to make it easier to do! Despite the concerns and confusion of those that love and care for me, off I went!

Knowing all I had to do was simply “show up” to be transformed, I threw myself into that work, having completed 12 seminars in about 2 and ½ years across continent! My program was a 3 to 4 year program and with more to go yet, what I really wanted, was to hunker down and put to good use all that I had already learned. I wanted to create or ally with something to apply my transformation to, get results with and complete…emphasis on “completion”. AND I didn’t want to just talk about it anymore; I wanted the real, tangible results – bigger bank account balances, a gradual, consistent and swift growth towards abundance, not just for me; for everyone around me too!! I wanted something I could actually measure my personal performance and self-accountability against, and a vehicle with which to hone my unique skills and talents. I know I have a “unique offering” in and of my experiences and teachings, I am seeing through my doing what that is and how to pay it forward to others.

I am not afraid of hard work; in fact I grew up on it and I’m continually aware of the fact that once in a while I need to just “chill”. What I had learned to do much better through my new teachings was to work smarter than harder. I had the knowledge, the ability and full chest of tools with which to manifest that (until now, elusive) perfect passive income vehicle!

Remember how I said I was asking different questions of myself and the Universe? Well I believe a momentous shift occurred when I asked, “Universe, what would the perfect network marketing opportunity look like for me?” Then I made my mental list of what I really wanted in a complete package passive business.

(This is the first time my list has made it to print.) I tend to really get into the feeling place of what I desire when I “make a list”; the list points are chosen (sometimes too) carefully by me. I always remember the list very well when it comes from my intuitive feeling place and I watch it all show up so perfectly!

So I closed my eyes, took a few deep breaths and scanned my experiences and desires. Without regard to what it “should” be, I spun out my list of what the perfect vehicle could be and paid attention to what each highlight felt like! (Having given up the search for perfection I am always defining what’s perfect from moment to moment.)

Here’s my hindsight perspective on what my list first looked like…I can only describe in my own words the feeling place of “effectively launching rockets of desire”, and ironically that’s the most important part one has to figure out for themselves, the “feeling place” can’t be put to print!

My perfect vehicle would be:

  • FUN by anyone’s definition. (Top ‘o’ the list on purpose. Fun = Abundance – A Universal constant in my world, it works every single time like gravity.)
  • Truly “EASY”. (Not just “simple”. None of any of this is rocket science.)
  • For EVERYONE – no exceptions! (I wanted ALL my relations to be able to benefit without excuses.)
  • INSTANTLY Gratifying and Results Oriented (Creates hope and causes one to revisit old dreams or move up the dates on them!)
  • Easily “Systemiz-able” and Self-Serve on any level one wanted to participate at. (Achieving success was not dependent on a team or referrer and yet support is available when ready for it!)
  • Fits into ANYONES lifestyle or situation. (Regardless of perceived time or financial constraints.)
  • “Wellness based”. (Health B4 Wealth – Another Universal constant in my world. *Note: See “FUN” above with respect to good emotional health.)
  • A vehicle I could utilize to Serve Others with. (I wanted a way to do “my good work” with others I enjoyed creating with!)
  • A vehicle where one can “Put a little in = get a lot out.” (A Universal and elusive constant in anyone’s world – it’s called “amplification” or to some “leverage”.)
  • Values driven and ethical. Well backed with longevity and good business practice.

I made some promises after that session that I would follow through on anything that smelled even close to my “perfection”. Then I went about my daily activities doing what I could and knew as I observed and listened for what showed up that felt good to follow, I also knew that if it felt good, somewhere in the mix it made sense!!

It all started to show up about a month and a half after I made that list. Not directly though, I had to follow the Universal and emotional bread crumb trail to get to it, and even when I did it took several months to realize I had found it!! When I look back from here, I can clearly see the synchronisity and fortuitous events that took place along the way, and I am also aware of how easily I could have missed the clues if I hadn’t been open to listening for the Universal winks along the way.

I fell in love with the concept of Network Marketing 13 years ago, I never left it and have been the poster child of “persistence”. After many years and learning experiences, I knew it was my best bet for the quick results I was wanting as a model for “consistency” to go with my pit-bull-like persistence. I hadn’t been actively involved with a team for more than 2 years and any previous success I had experienced fell far short of the dream the industry had always promoted. I looked back on all my experiences without judging any of it good or bad, I figured out what worked – what I appreciated, what didn’t for me – the things I wanted to make better. I made note of what I liked most about it all the ways I’ve done it, all the while checking in with what felt good and what didn’t.

Little did I know how ready I really was once I got out of my own way and surrendered to what I didn’t yet “know.” Another quote I still hear in my head today from a very early and passionate mentor and model Casey Combden:

“You don’t know what you don’t know.
That’s why you don’t “have”.
Because if you knew what you knew, you’d “have”.
Because to know and not Do; is not to Know.”

Well into my life waltzes the most perfect dance partner yet!! It was there all along and I didn’t recognize it, life has not been the same since! From across a crowded room I connected with certainty when I heard someone in conversation say the words, “healthy chocolate”…it was a very Scooby-like Zen moment as my head spun around to catch up with my ears and I heard myself say, “Huh?!” At that moment my Being’s focus was hijacked and laser like as I was moved toward this person speaking of such a thing! (This person to whom I will always be grateful introduced me to my new dance partner and I haven’t seen much of her since.)

I distinctly remember thinking, “Wow, my favorite, daily snack guilt-free, and healthy too you say?? Could it be true?” Then came the “bread crumb moment”, she said (rather sheepishly), “It’s network marketing.” I distinctly recall as she said it I knew she was going to say that! And as I watched and felt her brace for my response I responded with a full-body fist pump and a “Big Yes”, this I HAD to know about! I wanted to know who was behind THIS brilliant idea – a healthy chocolate MLM?! I knew somehow it would lead to something HUGE, it just made me giggle too much…as a natural-born rebel it appealed to my sense of the absurd and my number 1 on the list “FUN”!

I really wanted to taste the stuff – like now! My (now) referrer didn’t even have her shipment in yet, she had just ordered it the day before! I would have signed up right then and there, and I pulled back to reason…I didn’t much care how healthy it was, if it didn’t taste good I didn’t have the personal will to eat it everyday let alone promote it! So I made an appointment to meet with her at her home to taste some, it was early in the day on a Friday morning, I dragged my son out of bed early to go across town where I met the coolest people and I was introduced to both chocolate as a breakfast food and a valuable consumable commodity investment choice.

After discovering the product tasted aptly divine for this Goddess, I knew this would be my next point of focus for a while. My mind raced with possibilities on all fronts. I was the kid in the proverbial creative candy shop! I remember knowing the Universe was “in the room”, recalling the promise I had made to myself and checking my list of wants to make sure it would fit. I decided that I had better run with this to see where it took me. Having been scarred from previous experiences, I approached at first with caution and ate my chocolate daily and freely – no one even had to train me how to open the box or the wrapper on the nuggets! If that’s where this journey ended, I was quite happy with my newly found healthy food source!

I had become used to having access to really good quality stuff through my direct sales connections and entities over the years, so even though I had not been actively building; I understood the “value” behind remaining connected to the benefits of what the evolving industry provides to its consumers – and I knew I could make it work for me with the “right stuff” available.

It’s true that “success is the meeting of preparedness and opportunity”, and I now know what it feels like to have both at the same time in the same space, it feels like “a sure thing”!!

I am always fascinated by the way things can ALWAYS get better no matter where I’m at or what I’ve experienced, it is what I have come to expect from the “leading edge”.

It’s been just over a year and a half since that fateful moment when everything opened up for me. As I let the Universe sort things out for me I am reminded that the sorting applies to the people in my life as well as the stuff. As I become more and more of what I want, I am learning how to let go of my attachments to others that need to travel a different path. I am severing ties that only I have kept in place for my selfish needs.

The cool thing about letting go gracefully and with faith is that there is always a reward! As I mentioned, the stories of the rewards are piling up! I am figuring out where I play biggest and best, my results on all fronts tell me that.

I never really got what T. Harv meant when I would hear him passionately state, “Focus on your results!” In hindsight, I guess I never really knew I had any until one day not too long ago, about a year into this crazy project; I laid all my numbers out on a spreadsheet. As I lined up the numbers, it wasn’t too long before I started to see patterns and stories in the numbers. I could clearly see how significant events in my life, or that of the business itself was affecting them. I was also unable to deny the fact that this puppy was growing solidly and consistently. It was another world-shifting moment – a place where more belief was had. The results were there all along and I didn’t have visibility on them. It was a colossal “duh” moment, I realized I couldn’t screw this one up if I tried!!

I heard again the valuable words of my mentor from inside my head this time, “Focus on the results!” I now got it. It’s been almost 5 years hearing that and I can finally use it in a practical way! Ever since that moment I have taken “control” over how those numbers grow, along with some key indicators I can clearly see how I am in the driver’s seat when it comes to the numbers. I have something tangible to set realistic goals with, I can measure how much comes out when I put a bit of consistent activity in. I have a whole new understanding for the brilliance of the connection between personal abundance and business.

I have intentions and a dream around having my family alongside me as they were when I discovered the entrepreneurial world and the concept of passive income lifestyle. It was my family that introduced me to it 13 years ago. As of the end of June 2008, I had just watched and assisted my sister-in-law to blow by everyone I’ve been working with the last year and half in the chocolate business! She got started the beginning of April – just about the same time I laid out my numbers, she has since caught up to me to become my biggest and fastest growing business partner – in just 12 weeks. That kind of “results” causes a life shift, it carries with it some nice financial abundance that relieves a whole lot of “resistance”. It’s always a bonus when it’s the life of those nearest and dearest to me. I suspect she’ll blow by me too! And I know that I probably couldn’t have really assisted her in a serving way a year ago…

Everything in perfect timing! (Another of those constants.)

I attended my chosen company’s annual convention a few weeks ago, and although I have attended several conventions and events over the years, this was a humbling space and an experience from a different perspective than ever before. I was having a lot of thoughts like “I did it” and “look, I’m really doing it!” floating around in my head as I met dozens of people from within my own organization that I’d never met at all before or that I had never thrown my arms around. It was a lesson in “receiving” as I was being thanked and appreciated for “everything I’ve done for them”.

To “them” it seems a lot. To me I’m just out here being me and building a dream that matches what I envision for me and mine! I’ve never done anything so easy in my life!!

So after far too many pages of rambling I’ll leave you with some photos of some smiling faces and a transcription I was moved to transcribe just this morning! Here’s the last 2 minutes of Abraham-Hicks’ latest You Tube video and if you’re an Abe fan or even just one that walks around with those “rose colored glasses” on all the time, I think you’ll love it!!

I’ve titled this transcription: “The New “I Have A Dream…” Speech” A newer Abe-spun version of one of my all-time favorite famous speeches by Martin Luther King Jr.

Enjoy! Be back with you sooner…

Chocolate Cheers!

Radiant Chocolate Goddess
Have you had your healthy chocolate today?
It’ll change your life!

The New “I Have A Dream…” Speech

I have a dream about the way life can be upon this planet.

I see a time where people can live among one another,
In a variety of personalities, in a variety of genders,
In a variety of financial and sexual and oh, every other kind of orientations.

I see a world of such diversity that provides us strength and basis for MIGHTY expansion.
I see a world where in our differences we find our true strengths.
I see a world where as we come together in our differences – not agreeing with one another, but understanding that our differences provide the basis from which we all create and that, in this creation there is enough for all of us.

I understand that this is a world of un-limitedness,
I no longer believe in shortage,
I no longer see limitations and lack.

I now understand that people don’t have to think what I think in order for me to think it or, be what I be in order for me to be it.

I now understand that I am unlimited and that all along that this dream that I have dreamed has been dreamed by others and has been lived by many and I am now making claim to all of you that I intend to NOW live my dream!

I am free to Be as I Be. I think the thoughts that give me the resonance of that,
And I am no longer going to ask the impossible of the world to come into alignment with what I want, because I don’t want world alignment!

I want diversity.
The diversity IS the basis of that which we are becoming.


Transcribed from Abe on YouTube: Abraham On You Tube

I got skimmed!

As I’ve become more proficient over the years at creating my own reality, I have come to understand the importance of giving my journey’s contrast very “brief” attention.

I also know the vital importance of contrast in my life. It is a way to hone my preferences and give full-out attention and appreciation for what it represents to me…it’s also my most powerful teacher…if I dare to listen… 😉

I’ve been wanting to blog about this particular “circumstance”, and not until it had resolved itself and passed…with simplicity and ease.

So this past Friday, it was resolved.

Now it’s time to blog about my learning, I have a long list of things to appreciate from the very bottom of my heart…

The end result is all about our reaction and response to our circumstances. Removing the “good” or “bad” label from the situation allows me to detach from it and shift my focus to the more serving aspects of the event.

At noon this past Christmas Eve, just before I was to head out the door to Grandma’s, the phone rang and the display said “Private Name Private Number”. Because of the nature of my good work I typically make a habit of letting those calls go to voice mail. My inner guidance had me pick the call up despite my rule, afterall, it was Christmas and it could be someone wanting to wish me Merry Christmas!

When I picked up I was greeted by a nice man from the fraud department at my bank. Seems the day before I used an ATM that had been tampered with and my bank card had been compromised! He apologetically informed me that all access to my accounts was shut down and that the following Wednesday I should go into my branch first thing and change my PIN number.

I did feel the physical rise of panick at the thought of having no access to my money for 4 days – over Christmas! The nice man asked that I not shoot the messenger and my only regret in hindsight was that in my reactive state, I didn’t even wish him a Merry Christmas!! For shame…1st lesson. I’ve set the intention to work on my initial response to events… 🙂

I class this incident as a “hit the wall” type of moment and a chance to stand by and watch myself “in action”…

I recognized after I hung up that I needed to shift very quickly so I simply “let it go”…my friends and family were right there offering me whatever I needed to get me through the holidays…all was well and I began to appreciate the power of our technology and see one of the positive aspects of the “big brother” thang. Their system flagged my account with possible fraudulent activity…I appreciated that they were looking out for me…that I had friends and family right there to help me out…that I did all my Christmas shopping ahead of time (almost) for the most part, I was prepared. I appreciated having diversified my money so there’s more in another account if I really needed it.

So off to Grandma’s I went, Christmas was in Hallmark fashion and fun was had by all!

I appreciated that my oldest Neice understood Aunty Julie’s dilemma and she promised to call me when she buys her Christmas present with the money Grampa lent Aunty…Allie felt special because she was the only one that got real money… 😉

Fast forward to Wednesday morning…time to walk up to the bank and change my PIN! Yippee!! (The shutdown had also disabled the use of my credit card because it was attached to the debit card…and the sun never sets on my business so I wanted that back ASAP.)

I spoke to the nice lady at the desk and told her what the nice man on the phone told me to tell her and she hooked me up with a Gal that was an absolute treat to deal with!!

Now I want to jump out of the story for a moment to ask you,

“What’s the first thing you would have done if you had received a phone call like the one above?”

Really. Take a stab at it…’cause I think the next part is utterly hilarious…….

You would likely go to your bank account and see if your card had actually been compromised yes??!

It never occured to me from the time I received the call ’til I sat down with the Gal at the bank that I hadn’t once thought to check on my accounts…I made the assumption the call was for preventative measures…I found out once the Gal ran an account statement that the tamperer had run off with $1500.00 of my dollars…the system flagged the transactions as they came in in rapid succession after 3 maximum withdrawals about 9am Christmas Eve…I received my call before noon…someone was on the ball!

‘Nuther lesson…duh. And, I felt the magic of the Universe at work…why? Because none of it mattered…it wouldn’t have mattered whether I knew about it or not in the end…I figure the Universe did me a favor by not having the thought occur to me…I sat appreciating the fact that the tamperer picked me ’cause I had money to take…I hoped they spent it well and had a great Christmas…I was fairly certain the equivalent amount of contrast was present for them…

I listened to the stories of others from the Gal as we filled out an hours worth of paperwork and affidavits…this was such a small blip on my radar once my own initial reaction had “subsided”…it was just paperwork and a chance to spend some time with another nice person.

I learned that something like this can take others out…especially if they live paycheck to paycheck…and I was grateful that I learned to manage my money and had more than enough to make this incident appear as nothing but a rich opportunity for learning!

I set the intention early in this exercise to make sure I blogged about it because it is rich with learning for others as well as I. The whole incident was a marker that confirmed I am on the right track and nothing’s going to stop me! 🙂

I invested some focus along the way into asking myself why I manifested the blip…and as always the answers continue to unfold…my money is all back…I welcomed it home and asked if it enjoyed its walk…I learned a bunch of things and met some cool people…

Except maybe for a teensy bit of curiousity around how the tamperer did it….

I’m Lettin’ it go…

AKA “The Money Magnet” 😉